feeling sooooo bad, think everyone around dont like me, i talk a lot of crap shit i made a lot of damn fake smile i try to get into group of friends but ppl just keeping me out may be they dont like me, may be i did or talk shit wrong, may they arent, just me thinking too negative i just cant figure it out, well... i dont want to know the answer, what should i do if they really dont like me? i am trying to be nice, but i cant... the feeling is messing my mood up do anyone even think of me, really care my feeling, well i dont think so......... i cant hv fun w/ friends coz i am not happy w/ them. sitting in front of tele and comp making me sick and then ppl just think i like it... wtf u know what this sicky tele and comp mean to me? they equal "no friends", only shit hole like them for their life. but wtf, i hv no choice, no one wanna see me, no one wanna do anything w/ me well... not exactly, just i am the last option................ when they cant find anything every single actives, i didnt invole. well, i tried hard to be nice today.. but the empty two weeks(ya, i count the days...)... make me feel shit, i hv anger and hate in bewteen, u gave me that feeling, i reactivily send it back i am sorry if i saying shit too seious or it hurt u. i think i am on the low mood at the moment everything i said is what i "think" and very negative, so if it isnt the ture PLZ tell me and if u did read till here, only 2 type of ppl will read till here, care me or wanna laugh at me if u are the laughing one, gratz, u get ur entertainment if u are the care one... talk to me, plz, anytime u like anywhere u like, give me a call i will come, or u come here P.S. see if anyone remember my brithday, haha..... i really dont think so... even the guy sleep in the next room... i remember his.... and he forgot mine last year which only FIVE fukcing day later, that is really fucking good relationship, one way, not both way, and i really hated it | 
